Danier Leather Jacket
BEBE Faux Fur Vest
Urban Behaviour Sweater
Shoes from Hong Kong (hauled here)
Vintage Dior Bag
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
In the last couple of weeks (like almost 2 months), I went through quite a few unlucky incidents that bought my confidence and self-esteem down. I felt inadequate, simply just not good enough for anything. And, I'm not the type to let little things get to me, but it was a series of events where I felt like, oh my gosh, can something just be right?! I was frustrated, well actually, still am, and I'm almost afraid of failure.
I'm usually quite brave, although I may be nervous to take a challenge but I don't mind knowing that I'm not the chosen one. I usually don't mind if I fall flat on my face because it's my life and I love every moment of it.
Right now, I'm kinda scared, I fear because I've been hearing a lot of
Sorry, you ...
You have been great but...
------ (no response)
The bible verse above is a self-meditation for me. A reminder of my beliefs, my philsophies. Don't fear failures because it's a form of pressure you give yourself that you can only succeed and allow zero mistakes. Can you image living a life where you have to be in constant perfection? Fear of accepting your failures is like you can't accept your weaknesses, or an aspect of yourself. You are actually hurting yourself more than the words people have said to you. And I think that's what I'm doing, I feel like I'm letting these words really get to me and in turn I feel like I'm hurting myself. I'm blaming myself for every mistake or unlucky incident that isn't even on my end. I also need to learn that, He, has prepared these obstacles for me so that I can learn and embrace these mistakes and failures. Anyways, time to get on with it, pick up myself and prepare for more obstacles. I don't think I will fail forever :)
Sorry to bore you, but hey, if you are experiencing the same situation as me, hopefully this post helped you :)